Focus

Suddenly today have a wake up call... times for me to get focus

Focus on my master... I must grad this year
Focus on my Jascraft... for my long term financial
Focus on myself... love myself more then only able attract the right one
Focus on my family... spend more time with them
Focus on my future... how I want it to be and who I want to be
Focus on my kids... even though they not human but without them life will not as fulfilled
Focus on God... as they plan the best for me and I shall never forget that

Not less... I shall always remind myself never forgot my roots... where I come from and who am I when I'm nothing...

Cleaning time

there few days in "housewife" mood... hahaha... clean my closet, my bed, put my pillows bolster etc under sunshine... now my room smell refreshing... hehehe... but i dont plan take photo of before after... or else those read this blog will never enter my room d... hahahaha... (luckily my room is small... >.<)

the next thing i plan to do is sew own room curtain... of coz not those complicated type... some how i enjoy doing all this housewife work - traditional type somemore... hahaha... all by myself.. can save money, and can feel so proud as everything is DIY... huhuhu

once awhile back to basic still is the best achievement for me... :D tonight i definitely can sleep sound d~ huhuhu...

New Job

wahaha... great way to start my day.. i receive a call from the recruitment agent, and tell me that i got hired for the job i interviewed recently~!! muahahaha

oh well.. it just promoter basically (even though the title sound so high class - sales associate) at Coach... some people will even respond - Ha~! you study so high, master somemore but become promoter???

for me, its not the title, yes i can get far better job than this with my education background and past working experience... but is that what i want? and like it or not (yes... its gonna offend some people... but ... as if i care) the higher educated you are the more difficult you back to basic (ground work i should say)... and worst is... the ego gets higher... and in the end? i dont really think there are certain people have the personality or moral value that worth primary school student...

so... why im willing to be back as promoter... first of all... you never know how i suffered since the last job? and yeah~! how did i survive for the past few months ha? LOL... once got income and not bad type... i dont mind d... 2nd... coach is a international company... eventhough now i start as promoter... i believe if i work hard and smart one day i can slowly climb up to higher position... 3rd... since im still in writing process... at least i can get some own sweet times as well by getting a job that not so brain drainage type....4th not least... i can stay in shopping mall... hahahhahaa

so... hope i do well... and for those interested by coach in Kuching.. look for me la... wakakakakka... oh ya... not mistaken it will opn in kuching on the 1st June 2014 at The spring shopping mall.. hahaha

attracting the right thing

Went reunion with old school friend... haha... happy to see she now in happy marriage life... even though she did mumbling awhile that her husband no longer as romantic as before but can still see she is happy now... oh well... woman never ever able hide anything through their eyes...

Discuss this topic with a friend who is single like me... Some how we think this is what we call as attracting the right thing and expect less from anyone... A friend of her while single started to plan her life if she get marriage... she is confidence that she will get marry instead hoping getting marriage... so now she already a preggy... what we see the similarity here is both are expecting positive thing. .. so when positive energy surround us. .. then get prepared for it to come...

As what I always mention in past few post... I wish for simple life... spending with love one... travel around the world... I also that type person love seeing my love one enjoy my cooking... so its time for me polish my technique ( I can cook n bake well k? Just I never show off... uuhu)... when he meet me... All he need to do is love me more and appreciate me.. (and he need exercise more or else will gain weight wakaka). .. then I shall start plan where I want to go... so we both can travel together. .. and be appreciative all the time ( if he not appreciative maybe he not worth my appreciation afterall)

then of coz I shall prepare well on my Jascraft expansion. .. (one day will write reason I create thus biz) my vision is = jascraft is a moving biz... where I ever I go it will follow me...

So just smile and be happy... everything will be great and the greatest things are coming. .. get ready babeh

Keep Fit

Sigh... i feel so guilty bout it... im really not good in discipline myself... my bed always lure me in most time... sad but i need to admit, this ain't gonna be helpful if i want be fit and be sexy ( oh well, im a lady, what make you think i so eager keep fit :P )

today another lame excuse i created for myself... wakaka... as usual, blame on menstrual... oh my... when can i actually be more discipline and work on it... i see the result d... maybe thats the reason why i have lots excuses... hahaha... should start do something over it d i guess... any suggestion? perhaps i shall print sexy body pic and stick on wall ( that if i dint end up print wrong pic - half naked pic of Chris Evan... hahaha), buy sexy cloths so that i can fit in it one day... oh well.... i shall push myself again by tomorrow~!!! seriously... i think i shall just imagine if i have Chris Evan as my BF, that will definitely motivate me most~ muahahahahaha...


Yoga + Carry Weight + Cardio = Sexy me~ 

Live in this moment...

Am still in the mode of searching myself... lots flash back, analysis and thinking on there few days... slowly notice i really lost my real self... i mean the one that used to so energetic and never bother about surrounding... only one mission and vision = enjoy life to the max and live like there are no tomorrow...
Maybe growing up really can let someone lost... falling into adulthood trap... people set mission vision on us... or try to influence us by keep telling us what is the mission and vision of an "adult"... 
then slowly we push our own dream behind because we want to fulfill people mission and vision in priority... slowly fall into depression and tension... and BOOM.... the originality gone and became fairy tales..

Ever since the MH370 case (deepest condolence to the families and friends, hope they stay strong and overcome this nightmare soon)... it struck me again... life really so fragile, the next thing, i might be stuck in a plane and being inform that i will spending my last second with 100+ strangers~! good side, i wont die alone, at least i guess my soul wont lonely, we go see the light together, bad side, i dont have the chance say goodbye to my love one, i wont able fulfill my dream and there are lots more things i have settle...

there are certain things that we still put hope on... as for me, the basic one... graduate... earn money buy big house better car for dad... vacations and spend luxury times with love one... and not least build my dream cafe (cafe in paws)

today lesson = live like there is no tomorrow, love like he is leaving (maybe he no longer love me, but he always has my best wishes, and i will still always pray for him), be happy every moment... and appreciate people (include animals) around me and be gratitude all the times~ ^^

Live your daily life in a way that you never lose yourself. When you are carried away with your worries, fears, cravings, anger, and desire, you run away from yourself and you lose yourself. The practice is always to go back to oneself.

~Thich Nhat Hanh~

Self Talk

i love talking to myself since im little girl... sometimes i think im crazy... specially when in toilet taking bath or doing business... make me wonder if other people do the same?

like asking myself why i do certain things in certain way instead another way round
asking what is my next plan...
asking what if xxx happen and how will i respond
asking my own plan everyday
asking why im acting stupidly to someone even i know i should act another way...
and console me when im alone in tears...
of coz... scolding me as well in most time... LOL

the best part is, the inner voice actually always warn me about someone and it never fail (that why i always say i have good 6 sense... jeng jeng jeng)

is it true that the inner sound are Angels VS Devils?

but i always glad that i have this inner voice... at least i wont be alone... hahaha... as below pic say... "i need some expert advise as well k"

different luck

Not only human... animals also rely lots on their luck... karma of their past live...

My fatty just back from fighting with neighbour cat. .. sigh... whenever he back in silent and direct walk to kitchen... I guess we know who is the winner... found him in my room... when help him check up... as expected. .. few injuries specially the ear part... sigh.... 

 From the sponge you can see how badly he injured... nay... not so serious. . Just few scratch. .. haha... 

 And he start to follow me where ever I go as if I'm the bodyguard. .. sigh...

 And whole night hugging my leg to feel secure

Actually what I wonder is... how bout that cat... I believe he injured as well... did anyone help him apply med? Sigh... hope he ok.... 

taking care of ourselves

It's not easy to be a woman...

We suffer from menstrual pain every month... If we don't have menstrual specially if we single... We will get blame for not taking care of ourselves and pregnant... If we not pregnant we worry that in future we will have difficulty in pregnant ( menstrual mostly related to hormones that relates to pregnancy. .. Google it la ya... I'm not expert as wekl. .. huhu...) then we also worry we in higher risk of women sickness if our menstrual din come visit on time...

Ok... menstrual depart... before that we will face drastic emotional changes... good day it won't so dramatic. .. bad day we become drama queen. .. We will become like a mental illness people... simply think of lots things and our imagination suddenly become better than Leonardo da vinci or Michaelangelo... pity those people around me actually... I wish I can control as well...

On the first day... you'll see a walking zombie. .. thst is good enough d. .. sometimes you will see we end up dancing over Linkin park song rolling in the dark on the floor or bed... cold sweat till we shivering even without fans or aircond on... till the max point paint till we run to toilet and vomit.... then all we can do is lay and continue rolling on the bed till fall asleep and then wake up as if nothing happen... so for my dear male reader... Please be by your ladies side when their 'aunty' visit. .. its a mini delivery they need to face every month...

Ok ok... I'm bit out of my main point... so if we not as lucky as those in movie or those have lovey hubby or bf... let's take care of ourselves... I found this recipe kinda helpful n for sweet tooth like me I treat this as rewards as well... huhu...

Chinese always believe that red dates can help replenish blood and energy... so... put some red dates, the orange little thing which I Don know wat it call, tiny spoon of ginger and some rock sugar... boil for around 2 min... and it's ready for drink... I found it tasty and let me recover fast (normally I look pale after 'aunty' came) and most important less period cramp... so enjoy it ladies... ^^

improvement

After moaning and mumbling over my failure... I'm now decide to stand up and search for the previous me... I'm a energetic and live to the fullest person... Full with dreams and never fail to stand up after the storm thunder tornado. .. you name it... so I shall once again find myself... huhu..

So now I'm back to be book worm. .. After all these years. .. haha... just hope I can complete the whole book now. .. so let's start by knowing myself again. .....

diet

When I was little I used to be the joke of my classmate... because I'm fat with coconut hair style... but I never give a damn on them... I still have lots nice friends... those study well and those doesn't study well... I guess I should be proud to say I proved that appearance wasn't everything. .. I even got secret admire k! (Really should thank him for boosting my level of confident to the max) & i'm also teachers' pet because some how I'm a obedient girl... and result not so bad too... lol

But one night. .. I felt that my heart beat unconsistently. .. I thought i'm gonna end my life on bed... I remember how calmly my grandma told me "high chance you too fat... then the fat cover your heart... so your heart need extra energy to beat" (think bout it... good technique grandma... specially for a granddaughter that scared of die)... that's the turning point and that's the moment I decide to diet and exercise. .. and undeniable I also plan let those laugh at me regret! ( oh well some even double my size now... wakaka)

Ok... not that I'm super fit and slim and sexy now. .. but when I look back my old chubby pic... I'm glad that my grandma scared me to hell... or else today I might be those girl that still struggle and obese... huhuhu...

Ps : always be thankful to those hurt you as that's the motivation in most time. ... let them regret!!! Huhu

Rainy Days

the sound of rain always give me different type of feelings...

when im still little girl... i like rainy days... i like to see how all those little drops on window slowly combine with another one then became one straight long line and "swim" away

when get older... maybe read too much novel... i always wish to able to lie on my partner and just enjoy the warmth during the cold day... (still wishing tho)

i also wish that one day i have the chance, to read a book and have a sip of coffee during this cozy day... either alone or with my love one~ huhu....

 

after all... i just love rainy days... it calm me down and let me more relax... the sound... the temperature...

multitasking

Yes... I'm a multi tasking person... even since school time... I will normally plug my ear with songs while doing revision. .. texting people and play game in same time... its seems I never able to just focus on one thing at a time ( but I'm loyal to relationship ya..)

Recently I learn that how to be more productive during multitasking mode...
Read it from this link http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-12185/how-to-get-a-whole-lot-of-sht-done-in-a-day.html

Which I found kinda interesting. . Hehe... so I guess it's time to upgrade my multitasking level d.. huhu

Blessing in disguise

ever since i became unemployed (but i always declare myself as student still), the earliest time i wake will be 10am (unless there are some special mission)... hahaha... some say enjoy some say a waste of time...

today i decide to wake earlier (not so earlier la actually)... to complete and do my things that i planned for ages (few days only to be exact..)

feel kinda proud and happy as its seems im more productive today.. now i have clear ambition (objective la ha) - Settle my master this year - 2014! so waste no more time... i must chase my self... hit my own b*** so that i can move as fast as a horse~! huhu

today i also notice i shall learn love myself more... stop sacrifice for those that never aware of my existent and never change but continue hurt me (then blame me for never change - WTH)
 why shall i bother d since they never appreciate what i had done right? oh well...

first thing i shall do is ~!!!! clean my room after my brain in drainage stage... huhu...

hmm... mission for tomorrow? wake early as well... WAKkakakakaka... 

Loyalty

recently saw lots post bout marriage...hmm... specially asian VS western...

of course not to mention the marriage of the people around us... but hey~ lets compare the artists instead...

maybe as a typical asian - traditional one i should say, i notice husband/wife that stay loyal mostly end up well compared those who always cheat or disloyal to their spouse... huhu... karma i think will be perfectly describe...

in most time, people love to have better something, but they tend to forget those who stand behind/side when they have nothing... so when their life improve, they prefer hunt for better things/ person instead celebrate and appreciate the one that stand by their side all this while..

a phrase that i like most - to test a woman loyalty is when the guy have nothing, to test a man loyalty is when the man have everything...

dilemma

ok... once awhile talk to 'adult' (both my supervisors la... they matured and always give me inspirations when im stuck in no where...) will really open up my mind...

perhaps i shall just concentrate with my master and my online biz - Jascraft instead keep hunting for a good job... but sometimes i also kinda scared if that couldnt support my daily expenses... but give it a thought... i already living this way since last year october... so its about half year d... should be able to continue.. or not?

read a young entrepreneur post in FB - 'as a entrepreneur, person that you need to improve is yourself... by then the business will grow by itself...' hmm... maybe i should move on and do something instead worrying too much...

perhaps this is one of the 'push' for me step into business world... oh well... as what most sharing from those wellknown business legend... they always struggle from the beginning... they have no options but force themselves continue what they started...

dare to dream then i shall dare to accept process of dream coming true~!!!

Wish me luck~! (better, pray for me as well... huhuhu)