back to the 70's

im quite lucky... join this company less than half year then entitled to join the company annual dinner... hohoh... the theme is Retro~ which more towards 60's to 80's... hehehe...

quite excited with the theme, so have make an effort with my colleague for the"costume".... hahaha... so that's how i will look like if i was in those era huh? nice? i'm wondering...

as for the nite, the entertainment was nice... lots 60's to 80's song and dances... but the food... hmm~ i miss Kuching's food more... hehehe... oh ya~ i also receive a bottle and a box chair as the door gift... lazy take a pic of it~ hiak~! but overall it was nice...

my nice colleagues~


imagine me with that "Kap Chai" bike...

Stress... :(

soon will emotionally breakdown... is it because i just sign the contract to extend another one year, or is it because my work over loaded or is it because i don know how to react and adapt "adulthood"...

:( realise i'm emotionally not as stable before... im not as calm as before... now trying so hard to push down and control my emotional... really scared will lost control and scold people without intentionally... :( i tot i used to it dy... but for all the sudden i can feel i think too much... maybe Im too straight forward and dont know how to think twice before speak out... or maybe they just stress.. sometimes i was so happy to share something with them... but their respond seems like not what im expected... i don wish to be their "baby" that will burden them and need them "baby sit" all the times... but if i dint ask and do wrong i will bring troubles... sigh

i cant cry when i want to cry... i cant smile and laugh when i feel like it... i really not good in controlling my emotion... some how i really scared will burst out one day... :( i really don like controlling every emotion and thoughts... I'm really not good at this at all...

3 months

it has been 3 month i came to penang, work for 3 month and not least stay with him for 3 months... 3 months, it is short period yet it seems like so long dy... so far working still ok... but i still hardly be matured... time to times talk too straight and too playful... really difficult for me change this attitude... :( wondering is there any job that suit my attitude out there without requiring me change? now was thinking whether i shall accept extending the contract if they ask so... if i reject mean i need look for new job... if i accept i might continue in such walking blue... so how????

as for him... pity him... after i came over it seems like it give such big impact to his routine... now he need wake so early because my walking hours is 8am to 530pm... and the distance from house to the company also take at least 20min WITHOUT JAM... if jam then at least 45min... sigh...
during weekends, of coz for me its nice as I spend 48hours with him... hopefully he felt the same way too... hmm... sometimes was wondering will he be more happy if i back kuching and return him his freedom or will he prefer i stay here with him? wondering also... yet don't dare ask him... :( who say guy not complicated??!! HUH~!

overall, after being here for 3 months... my life start to shake... became less confident and keep wondering... like it o not I actually can sense that me myself emotionally not so stable and easily lost control specially in controlling my temper... sigh... need help.. GOD BLESS AH~!!!

FAcebook

wow~ today saw another lecturer of mine in Facebook... nowadays lecturer really so "hebat" and so sporting... hahaha... even their farm in facebook are more creative then us... some lecturer even have "rockers" look compared to the student... hmmm... what can i say? revolutions... hohohoho

FArewell party

one of contract based colleague is leaving the company by the end of last year... we all plan to have a seafood dinner before she is leaving... not that we celebrates her leaving, just that wish to have nice dinner together before she left the company... we all went to one of the well known sea food restaurant Hay Buey... some where near teluk sanggul... overall we ordered 11 dishes... the price? rm199.50... hohohoho....
very nice and cheap... without ordering fish la~ hohoho

Part of the foods we order... the others... we too hungry to take pic of it dy...


we also gave a cup... ^^ somemore with our name on it (syok sendiri so that she will remember us)


the member of dinner


in the other hand, i receive news that the company plan to extend my contract for another year... now still wondering whether i shall accept it... as i dont really fancy this field... another side of me plan stay in this company for the sake of learning while waiting for better offer.. so shall i stay or leave??? :(