Stress... :(

soon will emotionally breakdown... is it because i just sign the contract to extend another one year, or is it because my work over loaded or is it because i don know how to react and adapt "adulthood"...

:( realise i'm emotionally not as stable before... im not as calm as before... now trying so hard to push down and control my emotional... really scared will lost control and scold people without intentionally... :( i tot i used to it dy... but for all the sudden i can feel i think too much... maybe Im too straight forward and dont know how to think twice before speak out... or maybe they just stress.. sometimes i was so happy to share something with them... but their respond seems like not what im expected... i don wish to be their "baby" that will burden them and need them "baby sit" all the times... but if i dint ask and do wrong i will bring troubles... sigh

i cant cry when i want to cry... i cant smile and laugh when i feel like it... i really not good in controlling my emotion... some how i really scared will burst out one day... :( i really don like controlling every emotion and thoughts... I'm really not good at this at all...