life cycle

sometimes i wish i can be a goldfish~ not sure if the myth is true~ they say goldfish has only 3 min memories~ ^^ that's why it always swim around happily~ haha...

maybe i was too organized and always plan everything ahead since young.. i even plan and count how many years left i will enter secondary school (that was silly as it is a definite to enter secondary by the age 13 lo~! )... things happen too fast, now end up im lazy... people always me what is my future plan~ i tell them... enjoy my life~ :P

true what~! just like the handsome talented actor Cory, sudden death (ya, he took drugs, but i dont think he expect he will die in such a way lo)... sometimes, for those that been diagnose with cancer- even last stage, they actually at least been given some times to complete their plan, and let the people around them prepared for his leave one day~ i know... it's always easy to say then do... but sometimes, i think everyone will leave one day~ when your life chapter is complete, then it's time you bring the story to the all mighty~ :)

as for people besides them, definitely difficult for them to accept the facts, just like my grandma~ she passed away for around 10 years d.. now and then i will still suddenly wake up in the middle of the night in tears because i miss her~

sigh~ so why i want plan to achieve so high and be perfectionist? might as well i spend my time to the fullest?
some people ask me why am i so stubborn and heartless? most of the time, if i dont like a person, i rather walk away, ignore and better - i wont put her/him in my friend list~ life too short to spend time on such person that waste my time~ :P and most of the time i also lazy bother things around me~ why bother? not that everyone will listen my advise, in most time, they already have the plan, let them do their own way la~ if is fail, then they can learn from it~ if success then i will say lucky i dint say anything... hahaha...

but some how, there always someone that i cant let go~ as mentioned~! it's always easy to say and difficult to do... sigh~ perhaps everything happen for good reason~ last excuse i use in this matter is - perhaps this is what we call "fate"...