obstacle

sigh~ so sad... recently wasnt in my schedule of exercising... too many obstacles in between... when i notice there are bit changes and ready to go for next level... for all sudden there are obstacle stop me for being aggressive towards my new lifestyle...

the obstacles are below :

1) my sis is back - she dint stop me from doing exercise, just that i need accompany her and my dad out, and the time back home it was late evening dy and sometimes even already night time... OK lo... exercise schedule postpone next day...

2) Dad birthday + sis in starve - due to my sis was in starve while in johor, so my dad cook lots of her favorite food, specially pork... so my diet also get effected (excuse as well la... hahahha) ... hmm... then celebrate my dad's lunar and normal calendar birthday with my aunties, of course, all this definitely involve nice food... and im the one who need to finish all the food on table to avoid wastage... at this moment, miss my dear lot... because this normally is his duty... sobs sobs


3) had backache - once i told my sis regarding this matter, she support me by asking me maybe pull in my exercise routine by morning or maybe both of them plan back earlier... but end up, there is one morning, i wake up with weird posture... i had twisted my neck and back... sigh~ then i need walk and my head need pose as a turtle~ S*** i was really in pain when ever i try to move... even when i take off my shirt while bath... so how am i going to exercise... sigh~ another postpone... rested for 3 days as i dont wish make the injured even worst through my exercise... Sigh

its only left 11 more days to go... can i achieve my target???? sigh~ praying hard tomorrow everything will be smooth~ oum......

Facial time

PIMPLES~! BREAKOUT~!! attacking me~ was so sad for past few month... just because i want to have moisture face, end up i create sand paper on my face... sad sad and sad is the only way for me to describe how i felt...

my dear had bring me and accompany to try several facial while im there... because he cant see me keep up sad anymore.. haha,... actually because i keep nagging and complaining bout my face...

the main reason of this was i bought wrong mask, not to blame anyone, but im not the expert so i bought wrong mask for my face, so instead provide good moisture to improve my face, it actually have overly "nutrient" my face, and the moisture all was under the skin and create pimples internally, wow sound so complicated right? in short- break out, my face have sudden pimples on it! sigh

after tried so many facial saloon i still prefer back to kuching to my previous facial saloon who actually really know how to clean, yes... good cleaning as even the jaw line they will also help clear it... which is DERMACARE at jalan arang road~ ahhaha


i really like their services, because first they dont promote me anything, nor the products or the package. secondly, they really make the effort to help clear off every single pimple, blackheads and some internal bleeding without short cut. last but not least, the boss, she will come over and double check her staff work, not that she dont trust their staff, it a show of concern towards the customer and she is the expert...

but, during those moment it was really really damn suffer... they treat my face as a bun, squeeze and squeeze is all i can feel... i can even smell the blood smell after the boss help me clear my face... wow~ i was hoping that they could actually just knock me to faint during that very moment...

so i took a photo after the facial.. perhaps it still look not nice, but it does feel better, at least i dont feel the uneven texture and most important the marks are smaller dy... huhu...

hope my face will recover before 14 Sep~ wush~

Application of MAster

Just settle of my Master application in UNIMAS, hmm... not as complicated and not as simple as i thought... i only know working require resume, never expect study also need resume... huhu... lucky enough the staffs in UNIMAS are friendly and kind enough let me email those documents that not completed. or else i will need to trouble my dad for another 30 min trip to there again... sigh~ now only will wait for good news... huhu... wish me luck la~

healthy me~

started to fall in love with exercising recently... previously, i was never really like it because each time i get into exercise it means that it was time i gain weight. couldn't deny it was the same thing as well in the past two weeks when i just return from Penang. i was so damn desperate to lost few kg before mid of September as my dear will be convocation during that month... why does it bother me? because i wouldn't want my self look like a bun in his master convocation photo... hahaha

so when i reach home, i told my family that i must lost some kg within a month before i return penang in mid Sep. my dad is great, as he shows his greatest support for me, he bought only fishes and veges. haha... so now everyday there must be at least one type of veges... which is mostly finished up by me... can you imagine, now my breakfast are oats, fresh blended orange juice and alternate day yogurt ( because yogurt are so expensive so i couldn't afford daily yogurt :( sad) lunch i will have home cook simple meal, sometimes eggs, left over food and etc, then before my workout, i will mostly have a fruit, any fruit, apple, pear... just to avoid my tummy playing drums during my workout.. huhu

as for my work out, mostly i will refer to the link of : www.bodybuilding.com. at first this was my dear favorite web as he love building his body... haha... but recently due to my needs of reducing weight, so i need enter this web for proper guidance... then i started my own schedule of daily exercise... cardio + yoga + weight lifting of coz must + RESTING. daily around 30 to an hour... hehe...

after consistently doing it, wow... i really could feel the different... of coz not that now i have 6 pack and lost that butterfly arm and that football leg... just that i can feel my body slowly tone up.. and i really do sweat lot now... specially doing yoga, my whole body will sweat like i just finish swimming, and my leg, yes specially my leg can now sweat... hahahahha.... this is something that i think quite funny, previously i saw my dear leg sweat, i feel that was so weird, but now i know how does it feel. perhaps when do more sports, metabolism had increase, and this also help the pores breath better, indirectly, not only forehead, armpit and back will sweat... leg also will sweat man~ hahaha

will continue do so now, hmm... after lost those kgs, i think my next target is tone up my body... muahaha... i hope it will success~ yeah~ perhaps like Jamie in the picture below?? wu~

Back for good???

Yes im back~ Jeng~ hoho... had return my miao town after being in Penang for 2 years. don't be surprise, this was all within my plan, plan to return to continue my study~ hehe... yes, and as most of people curiosity, i really have a hardship of leaving my dear over there and let this relationship be in long distance again, sigh~ but i do believe that our strong believes towards each other will help us get through this challenge~ :D

so now, i was growing mushrooms and become internet addicted most of the time... as i was still awaiting for my future supervisor to provide me some feed back... it's a great time for me to settle down and relax for awhile as well after working like a bull for 2 years... :)

another prob is that i was also looking for a part time, after knowing how to earn good money and spend it not so wisely without hesitation, i really cant bare with the life without money anymore... haha... so wish me luck for my new life~ and i will back to active as bloggers again~ hurray?? -_X

Movie lesson

Having movie marathon with him... after watch eat, pray love then watch burlesque... and actually every week we went for movie... haha... couple seat before 12pm RM12 le~!!!

most of the time we will watch such heavy message type of movie at home, as for those fantasy movie such as i'm number 4 at movie due to the sound system are better... :D

after watch Eat, Pray Love... it causing me to have a lot of thinking... couldn't deny that most of the time i will link it to myself ( hey~ this is how people attract to movie k.. :D)... most of the time when fall in love, we tend to lose our self... most of the time we will change ourself to tolerant the another one so that we make sure we will be in his/her way of doing thing... such as when Julia Roberts met her 2nd BF, she become a "cleaner" and more demanding... perhaps this action only suitable for those that just started fall in love... because that will be the stage of " love is blind"... but once the couple start plan for future, they will become more realistic... but by that time, i believe the real identity of the partner already gone... why did i said so? because before reach the "realistic" stage, we already change to tolerant our partner,

there are two type of ending :
1 ) it's either we really can adapt to the new life, or the heart already filled with those little thing that we dont like instead love... sigh~ indirectly, we already lost the identity that attract our partner at the first place... sigh~

ok ok... come back to another way round,

2) so when the couple plan for realistic life, they notice they not only fall in love blindly due to "feeling", but the partner actually slowly shows their real identity and even change to become better person... so? happily ever after lo~ haha...

overall, this movie let me understand that the 1st rule to have good relationship is "love yourself before letting other people to love you" :)

but honestly, i'm quite disappointed towards the movie's ending... i still thought she will back to the 2nd BF... hmm...


As for the Burlesque, the message i get bit different

Even though the couple actually quite sweet and romantic, but honestly, it make me feel so unsecured because the guy have distance Fiance and yet still can in love with Christina... sigh~

but... but... it shows that dream actually achievable as long we keep and hold it strong with the will~ haha... nice movie...

hmm... wondering next week will watch what movie dy... hoho...

2010 Penang

1 year had passed lu... been here for 1 year + dy... soon will be back lu...
after celebrating valentine day with him yesterday, today I need accept the fact that i'm going back dy... at least within this 1 year i had celebrate new year eve, his and my birthday and not least valentine day... all not as what i expect. but guess i shall appreciate it anyway... :) something better than nothing ma... hahaha

will be leaving here around 16days more... then will stay at my own home town dy... hope previous year, all my sacrificial for this relationship worth it... as after return home town, i really dont know what will happen dy.. perhaps due to environment or due to ppl around me, i'm lack of confident within everything... trying my best to trust this relationship will work even if it's going to be a long distance relationship... :) lots ppl asking me specially my colleagues that what will happen between us... well~ as usual, i will just tell them this will only be the challenge for us lo~ if success then haliluyA~! if fail then bye bye lo~ what else right??

perhaps shouldn't worry much~ haha... as it seems my leaving doesnt give any impacts anyway... sigh~ maybe it's just me~

hmm... now i need to plan what i need to do when i'm back~ study? continue work??

if study ; part time or full time?

if work; can i accept the lower payment? or shall i wait till the worthwhile payment?

hmm... lot's more to think~ muhahahaha... brain just cant stop thinking...