Wednesday, November 26, 2008

little angels 2

Nowadays being as a kid is not as simple as mine previosly. previously, i use to paly at home... during holiday i will enjoy by spending at home being monkey... watching TV, read novel n comics and on... but today's kid, their life been filled with tuitions, classes such as arts, dancing, ITS, and on... for me they are too stressed up... pity them, isit because their parent too Kia Shu? but in other hand, its for their future as well... the standard are higher while the competition gets higher as well... sigh... hope that in future the mental psychologies increase as well... hehehe... anyways... everything have good things behind it... ^^

so its my second week teaching... teaching them crafts, telling story and on... teach them do mask on the tuesday. ^^ seems they enjoy it alot... at least they are easy be happy...
one of the crying mask

a group of student in mask... they just so cute~

Friday, November 21, 2008

little angels

hmmm... so a week had gone for my holiday while it just a starting for my teaching life... they are so cute and adorable... i never expect i like kids so much... they are so naive, naughty, simple, innocent and not least very tricky... hahaha... 1st day enter the class they behave so well... start talking softly... then i start asking them some questions and all... after awhile the worm in their body cant be controlled anymore... their mouth non stop talking..."teacher this, that, why this why that..."everyday could hear some student making small report about their family, siblings and to their class mate... funny thing is, they never angry of other friend who betray them but they will honestly admit their mistake and defend themselves if they dint do it... really so simple... how i wish real life is that ways... everything simple and easy... hehe...
when class started, they seems to be interested in every subject... perhaps because the students in my class all are gals, as well smart gals... they able to catch up and understand every words from me easily... hehehe... another side is that... since they able finish it up easily then after they finish up every thing they start jump here and there... really like monkeys... but of coz... as their teacher is a tiger, they end up scolded by me and sit down looking at me innocently like a kitten... haha... wondering why each time look at them after scold by me remind me of my cats... hahaha...
anyways... its too early to judge them... haha... 5 more weeks to go for this tiger teacher change back become monkey for my uni lecture... hohoho

the teacher (my eye swallow as wake too early...sobs)

environment of the class

morning class angels

afternoon class angels

hoho... her hair nice right?

Saturday, November 15, 2008

back home~!

yeash¬!!!!! finish exams... finish assignment... stil wit my PTA and another new task... become a teacher for primary 3 kids...

early morning, wke up packing and prepare back home... lots of laggage... so heavy somemore... as i stay at 4th floor... more song... need run two round with the heavy lauggage... a morning exercise... ^^ i really wondering.. as local student, i have lots of things to bring up there... wat if im not local? guess that i need book a room to keep my things... haha

so after back home, direct went to the tuition center to take the teaching material... problem is i need teach MANDARIN!!! eventhough i took mandarin during spm... till now i still wondering how did i pass it... haha... now i need relearn my mandarin... coz somemore the science subjest i need teach in mandarin as well.. peng... need to teach 5 subjects... bahasa melayu, english, mandarin, mate and science. some how i pity those kids... coz in young age they need to study hard.. compared to me previously... hehehe... i really do enjoy my life... ALOT... for sure i wont share with them the ways i prepared for important examination week. (during UPSR, i spent times reading Conan comics, PMR i spent times in Cyber cafe playing counter strike with guys, SPM i learn and play Mahjong with my cousins, STPM hahaha... better don continue)...

last but not least... things that make me happy most will be food cook by my dad and my little new son "puppy"

but some how dad release her from the cloths that we used to tie around her neck... now she can run so fast bcoz practise to drag since young... hoho...

i realise one new thing... the shop that near my house have a new barber shop.... it is in classic style my dad said... they dont have door and it is very cheap... cut for male and kids RM5 only, and female RM6. hehehe...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

If I were a boy

If I Were A Boy lyrics

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

By Beyonce

Heard this song and it feel just so right… When I was a little girl, my hair never kept long till I grow up, and look like coconut shell … why i look this way? Coz had this thought as well... I wish to be as a boy… during those days I wish to be a boy is because I want play till late night, then can be half naked running around like my cousin… can play car toy, make other little cry… hoho… and on. Until I was around 10 years old, I told my dad I want be tomboy (watch too many movies) Then uncle cheat me that a tomboy must wash car, so asked me to wash his car every week. Only when I grow up then I know it’s a trick… hmmm… feel cheated… haha… as for dad? Still can remember dad say I was a boy… then during the process of mom giving birth, mom run too fast and something drop off so I became a gal… - -“faint… haha…
but I think that time dad know it’s impossible for me to turn into a tomboy, even though I am kind of boyish, and my outlook successfully cheat most people. (Can’t imagine dad and mom’s friends and some uncle and aunty will follow me go toilet just to peep on me to confirm I’m a girl sigh~!) Why I fail?? Coz I don’t have the boy attitudes which suppose to be brave. I’m kind of timid, go toilet bath also need my grandma to help me guarding outside the toilet, if watch horror movie then my family need accompany me where ever I go for a week, as the impact of the horror movie drag… one of the reason till now I don’t fancy horror movie.
But when I grow up, feminine gen become stronger… keep long hair… dress like a girls… even make up like a girl… act more like a ladies (ya rite), and on. Then I also wish I were a boy… now, reason will be different… I wish to be a boy is so that I will understand what they had in mind most of the times… why they acted cold when girls are nice, why they complains girls not understanding where as they don’t like girls ask too much… when ask too much from concern they named it as controlling… hmmm… then when girls complain, they say girl troublesome… when girl keep silent… they say girl don share anything… sigh…. When girl dress and make up properly, they say girl want flirt… but when girl dint, they attracted to other girl… hmmm…. When girl independent, they say that girl is too “strong”…. When the girl stick and depends on the guy… they complain the girl are sticky and troublesome… burden in another words… of coz… not every guy are like this… ^^
People love to say girls are complicated... As for me guys are complicated as well… hmmm…. Maybe that’s why guy always attracted to gals and opposite ways… bcoz curiosity and wish to explore each other more… hiaks… anyways… I’m glad I’m a girl... @_^ miao~!

when i was little gal together with sis...^_^

today's me and sis... see the differences? @_@

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Way Back into Love

Way Back into Love - Hugh Grant (featuring: Haley Bennett)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

above link will the short video... im melted...

ok... fall in love with another song... really smoothing song... when heard this song feel so calm... i actually dint know its from a movie... untill my sis heard my ring tones... hehe.. love it so so much.. meaningfull and touching song... ouww~~!!

I cry

I Cry

Yuri Chika


Every night I find it so hard to sleep

Cause I keep thinking of you

And these feelings from deep

Oh baby I try to hide all these feelings for you

I keep them all out of sight

I don't know what else to do


So I cry

But nobody hears me I cry

It's my only solution I cry

To all this confusion I cry

With all of my heart I cry


Sometimes I wonder in the blink of a night

Would you be waiting to love me?

Would you give it a try?

I don't know how it's to show you

That I'm not good be real

I'll be eternally faithful

Forever I feel


So I cry

But nobody hears me I cry

It's my only solution I cry

To all this confusion I cry

With all of my heart I cry


No one can tell me that I may be wrong

Cause I know in my heart

This feeling still running strong


Can't get you out of my head

Can't get you out of my heart

Can't get you out of my life

No matter it fell apart


So I cry

But nobody hears me I cry

It's my only solution I cry

To all this confusion I cry

With all of my heart I cry


But nobody hears me I cry

It's my only solution I cry

To all this confusion I cry

With all of my heart I cry


© 2002


Feeling quite down today… some more it's raining, perhaps this make me more emo… heard this song. It touch my heart as this is what I felt now… This is what I will do whenever I'm down, stress, and lost… most of the time will only do this when I'm alone… coz I don't wish influence ppl and make them worried… that's why most ppl have impression I'm happy go lucky types of person… actually I am la… haha… unless I lost control… but at the moment only my family and my wife and my dear saw my ugly face of crying… hehe… actually crying is a good way to relies the negative emotion… maybe that's only apply on me… that's why family call me "kuk bao" aka "crying baby"… hehehe… after that will have a nap… because whenever I awake, it's another wonderful day… don wish to waste my life by hanging on negative thing ^^ (my wife always say only me can emotionally change so fast, am I?? @_@ )

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Friday nite

Just finish my very 1st final paper... Great... can’t really know how to do... hahaha... but anyways... maybe this is the result when taking own result for granted specially when knowing will pass... haha... alone in apartment... friends back home... now then I understand wat my friend once told me "alone in home, really bored and lonely yet not willing look for things to do coz tired" haha.... but I still enjoy this feel... coz not every time I had such chances for being "bored". Recently bit crazy dy... Do funny things... din step out from room except for toilet and bath.... haha...

My anti social virus getting worst... sigh…maybe coz most of the time when I’m alone I have my phone radio and my laptop accompany me... ^^ recently fall into Britney new song "womanizer" (, don really fancy towards the video clips specially the dance... haha... but like the story line... overall...really nice... portray her bitchy style... ^^ just can’t get bored of it... maybe I became bitchy as well hohoho... actually never know I will like her song... maybe coz now she lost her image and bit crazy dy... portray me I guess... haha... then like more more chicky song such as "so wat" from Pink, "getting better" by Christina Aguilera, beyonce's "if I were a boy" and on... most song are bit rebellion and bitchy style... haha... well... that’s me anyway.... hahaha...

Thursday, November 6, 2008


Ok… so the election in US has the result… Obama wins. The first African president… actually I'm not so into politic… but something I found very funny… listen to hits FM… now they play all the song that related to Obama. Even a song written as "I have crushed with Obama". COOL~! They able to create song instantly for him… now from 3pm to 4pm, hits FM playing top ten song specially for Obama which include – hero by Mariah Carey, beautiful days, better life by Christina Aguilera and on… hope Obama will listen to hits FM… haha

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

new hair

Saturday afternoon went to the hair shop at green height to have a hair cut... hair out of shape dy... by the time i reach the shop, change my mind and wanted to colour my hair as well... at 1st plan to dye green... so that will look like a witch... muahaha... but yet, as my hair are quite dark and hardly absorb green unless i bleach it 1st... the result will be my hair need extra care... as a student im not that hardworking especially for beauty purpose... so postpone the though after i graduate then... then colour my hair with decent colour which is brown... hahaha... at least i add on some colour now... hehe




the result?? i think i look like yellow hair monkey... hahaha... but im happy for it... at least something new~ yeah

Monday, November 3, 2008


ok... so after giving myself a week of holiday (actually is study week, but i misused it... hoho...) last nite back to hostel dy... need be decent and start building relationship with my books hehe... dad not so happy for me to come back so early... his wondering why i don want study at home instead... the reason so simple... at home always so relaxing and i have lots excuses for not studying... such as playing with my sons... especially now i had new kitten named "puppy"... both pc at home, can online anytime i like... tv... friends calling for outing... phone for me call my wife chit chat n gossips... and most important... my bed... no matter when, as long i lay on it... next thing will be?? ZZZzzzzz.... haha...
where as in hostel, i can pay more attention on books... I'm a bit weird actually... most of the time i will lock the door and hide in my room... as my dear always say im anti social actually... coz once in awhile having own space and living in own world feel more calm and peace... i can even stay in my apartment few days without stepping out from the door... meal? have in room as well... maggie and biscuit... haha... no wonder when i back home dad call me vampire...
now left 1 more sem... soon will graduate... ^^ kinda miss uni lifes... as all friends are here... lectures... all the scene... hmm... so relaxing (except during assignment and exam week) and all the up n down moment... ^^ hope able had such feelings again after i leave here... ^^ anyways... times for me to open book now... ^^ hehe... looking out the window... today is another great day~ ^^