Saturday, August 19, 2017
Friday, August 18, 2017
Thursday, August 17, 2017
make me wonder... maybe getting older.. take things more serious than before.. im kinda annoyed by people that love to flirt... it hurts to know people that you have feeling on/ like/ in love flirt with others.. maybe some people will question "why so serious? just flirting... not that we have affair for real"... this call insecure.. we always think that another person is perfect.. and everyone actually will "get" him away from us.. and we also will always think we are imperfect.. that another person that he flirt with for sure better than us.. specially when that person get his attention d...
it means alot for someone who actually serious in the relationship.. specially the loyal one~! some people even say "since you dislike people that flirt, then why attached to them?" Easy.. that's call STUPID~! sigh~ Easier said than done... who want to get hurt? before you know it.. you fall into it d.. most time specially lady will try their best to forgive the another half..
Emo mode on~! Grrrr
Tuesday, August 15, 2017
Monday, August 14, 2017
Saturday, August 12, 2017
One day... do hope my another half like to spend time together in this way as well... ^^
Thursday, August 10, 2017
recently my memories getting worst.. i cant remember people name.. cant remember some of the thing i mention or said (obviously im not serious with those). but sometimes my memory can be super good.. specially on things that touched me.. (maybe thats how i stuck in certain stage cant move on) or something that i spend with people i care and love.. (emo~!) those little things are so memorable for me..
everyone will do mistake.. but.. is it really matter? so long it doesn't cross my limits.. most time i will forget it.. i rather remember their good deeds.. or perhaps im too lazy to "hate" someone.. hatred will actually let us "miss" and allow them get some space from our memories.. since we need keep remember their mistake.. ouch.. tiring~!!!
but too much emotion is bad as well... no emotion cold heart.. hmm. another dilemma~ hahahaha
Wednesday, August 9, 2017
So... to distract myself noticing my own mood swing.. to reduce i hurt people around me.. now days i will do more things.. but cost me as well lo.. sobs..
first thing of course is SHOPPING~! who can resist it? order online.. and when it arrive.. will so excited as if the postman is Santa Claus.. huhuhu...
after all im still a girl k~!
then.. try chat with other girls.. ONLY GIRLS KNOW... if chat with guys.. they surely will thought "oh well.. here come the "blame the hormone" time.. " so better try avoid them as well this moment..
not least.. read book.. this round i read a book that for my own good.. forgive myself for being insane.. this year.. i really need apologize to myself... mental and emotionally abuse myself too much d (wont be physical abuse as im scared of pain )
Tuesday, August 8, 2017
Oh well... instead getting grumpy... might as i count the blessing.. at least im in a car with aircond n nice music.. sometimes texting (only when red light) n chatting (handsfree k.. don report me)...
Huhu.. lets enjoy the ride.. ps: make sure you have full or atleast half tank filled petrol ya
Monday, August 7, 2017
A bridge that lead me to ponder.
There are some bridge lead us to another path.. another new world... be another us
There are some bridge we wish to burnt off so we can have a better life...
But all this.. once done cant be regretted... even if regret.. it will take times for us to cross the bridge again.. and things will never be the same again..
Sunday, August 6, 2017
Recently movie marathon over the weekends. Since its hot out there, try to back to homey me and get some entertainment to kill time..
Watched "Rough Night" & " Girls trip". Starring by the famous sexy, influential, strong and independent lady icon - Scarlett Johansson (Rough Night) & Queen Latifah ( Girls trip)
These past few months im in bad shape.. losing myself again and again... cant really figure it out why, but its bad.. like.. REALLY BAD
nothing to be proud of.. but all i can say is its a process of learning.. understand myself again and try to get up from where I fall and be another better women instead girl...
The message i gained through these two funny yet rich with messages is that friends always the most important. Most of the time i wont deny, when i have another partner i tend to neglect my friends. they always the understanding one and tolerant me well.
Since years ago im single.. actually kinda used to it d.. i notice that im stronger than before.. but.. the wound still there.. and its still fragile.. kinda easy to bleed compared last time. Hence, its an automatic shutter d.. somehow it closed...
No matter what the status is.. its a new generations.. not every marriage last... of course we wish we the lucky one and create the happily ever after own story as the fairy tales show... but.. being single and surrounded with fun and nice supportive friends not as bad.. at least they always be there with us when we in tears, when we curse people.. and not least when we discussing bout guys..
Well... hope my spirit in back into blogging will last. Else it will be another once a year article again ^^